by Kathleen Lynch
Start with something harmless--
a stone perhaps. Choose one
large enough to sit on, one so heavy
it cannot get up and hit you of its own accord.
After that try loving a leaf--
preferably one lying nearby,
preferably a dead one. Do not taste it.
Next: something with a rudimentary
brain--an insect, or the spider on your shoe.
This is where it gets tricky. The most beautiful
are often toxic and their interest in you
is minimal. When you turn to mammals
hunger becomes an issue.
You can even open yourself
to another of your species, with a brain
and body like yours, capable of anything.
But if you are afraid, stay
with the rock. Remember though--
it will not feed you,
or speak, or answer.
Words can't even describe how glad I am that I chose to not be afraid.
11 years. Of being his. Of his being mine.
Happy Anniversary, tesoro.